Am I being punished???

I don't know about anyone else but I've had days where ABSOLUTELY nothing goes right. Days where it seems like everything and everyone is working in one big scheme against me. Of course that isn't true but have you ever had one of those days? A day where so much happens that you end up asking the question "God where are you, am I being punished". 

Maybe you feel like that "off day" is a direct result of your minimal prayer life. Or because you slipped back into fornication? Maybe you feel you are being punished for a choice you made or maybe even in one you didn't: not choosing Him. Perhaps you cursed someone out, walked passed a sick person and did nothing, perhaps you doubted Him or maybe even stopped going to church. 

Guess what, none of that really matters. At least not enough for "punishment". The amazing thing about this relationship is that He loves us in spite of ourselves. And to take it a step further, He knew EVERYTHING we would do and chose us anyway. Now to try and grasp that type of love may be hard for some. 

God wants us to choose Him. He is not in the punishing business. The thing we fail to realize is from the moment we open our eyes, even before our feet hit the floor there is a fight and war going on. Satan and God are DAILY fighting for our souls. Now Satan can't win unless we give him power he doesn't have BUT that will not stop him from trying. 

We have to step off of the position of offense, guilt and being ashamed. We are not a perfect people but we are His. We are chosen. We are protected in Him. So when a "bad day" comes face it with understanding. A understanding that you know whose you are. A understanding that says "devil I see your tactics but I chose God and His truth". Truth is, that's all it's about anyway. God just wants to know where our heart is. Will we choose Him or ourselves? I vow to choose Him! This year I vow to step out of living a life of offense, guilt and one that makes me feel like I'm not good enough for His love. We may never "deserve it" but one thing is for sure it will NEVER be taken away. So no, you are not being punished. You are just in the greatest fight ever and you're just the pawn. The question is, whose pawn will you be? 

Until tomorrow,

Kaitlyn