Living in a world that is constantly on the go, I have come to realize that many people are just doing the movements of life without actually living! Most people either go to school, work or both...maybe church, maybe find time to go out throughout the week, but for the most part majority of people's life is a habit-repeated action! Everyday is very similar to yesterday, every detail of your day down to the way you take your shower is a repeat of the day before! What is the purpose of living like a robot? What is the purpose of living each new day the same? What is the purpose of going through life existing but not really living? What is the purpose in living without a purpose? Each one of those questions are questions I have asked myself at one time or another.
Up until this past week, I would say I was one of those robot people. Everyday for me was the same, a bunch of unproductive mess! I would wake up, go to work(not really do anything while there because all that was ever on my mind was ME-wrong way to live), come home maybe watch a little TV and go to bed. I did that Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday but on Wednesdays and Sundays I would go to church. I would play the roles that everyone expected me to play. I would handle my responsibilities all the while so far from God in my "outside of church life" that it was basically a slap in the face to God. Never spending time with Him, rarely praying, can't even remember the last time I picked up my bible outside of Sunday and Wednesday services! And to be honest my life reflected it, I was more miserable than ever!
To be honest, Monday of this past week 10/10/2011 I almost walked away from everything. My church home, my walk and God! I felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders, and worst than that I felt I was incapable of handling it! I felt I was and will never be anything more than a disappointment in God's eyes and the eyes of the ones closest to me! Today all I can say is BUT God!!!!! I allowed false words to be spoken and over take the truth God already revealed to me. I am and always will be loved! I am and always will be needed and of value! And more importantly the day I took ME off of my mind is the day I found freedom!! Freedom to be who God called me to be! Freedom to go places in my walk I thought I would never go! Freedom to actually live life!
I've had a particular song on repeat for the past week, it is a song that brought truth back to the forefronts of my mind! It brought me back to reality! Between this song and a video I watched it put things back in perspective! I encourage everyone to find their freedom and find their place in this lost world! The only place for me is at God's feet! It is the greatest, free-est, most peaceful place I could ever be. It is the place where you can find the answers to all your questions. It is the place where you can find rest and peace of mind. It is the place where you are genuinely loved unconditionally. It is the place where you will find strength! It is the place where you can find your true self, the one He created you to be! "I finally found my place, and its on my knees, at your feet!"-At Your Feet by Valencia Lacy and Unquenchable Worshippers
FIND YOUR PLACE!!! FIND YOUR FREEDOM!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q507eUrLOuc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aowB5wNPvWQ
